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University Life Level 3 Finally !!

2011-11-21T23:45:00.001+08:00

Hello my fellow readers (if i do have them lol) =p Well, here I am again missing in action and now back in action haha... Well, it's been about 3 months now and just decide need to update my blog again. A 2 months break was given to us since we finished our 2nd year, so here is some few updates. Let start knowing my life for the past months.

August. The month for muslims around the world to fast during the Ramadhan. This month I was also doing my exams for my final 2nd year in bachelor degree. A tough month for me, perhaps for some student too. 1st time ever I fast whilst my exams are going on at the same time. It was also the month after my nephew was born. Such a happening month for me at the same time.

September. Hari Raya Aidilfitri (Eid Mubarak) was in this month. A month where I enjoy very much with my family and friends. Went to visit a lot of friends at the same time getting to know few new friends. While on this month, we await for our results in order to get in to Level 3. I think this is also the 1st time I didn't buy any new clothes for the celebration festival. Snap a lot of pictures especially with friends which I updated in Facebook and Twitter.

October. Here where a new beginning begins. Email send to me and eligible to enter my final year. Was so happy but at the same time, we went a lot of trouble especially for financial. This is more on family matters so I will not be typing much about it. So met few new friends and loss some old friends who are suppose to be in with me in the 3rd year of bachelor degree. Such a tough month for me even to survive due to some major problems.

November. Now this current month is less than 10 days to end and will be going to December the last month of the year. Many events have been held and maybe more to come in the future. Thanks to all my housemates who have given support especially holding the big and 1st event for Brunei students studying in Malaysia.

So all of the month I miss to fill up my blog space have been briefly stated as I can remember. I am not sure if anything interesting I miss or not to state them here but if I do, I will just upload a new post.

I would like to make more friends if possible since my previous post have been commented especially 1 of it. A lot of readers say many good things and cool advices. I really appreciate what have been said and mention and I will bare in mind.

Maybe I will make a new post again soon since this final year in bachelor degree, we have a lot of free time (which we must utilize them for our final year project) but hey, all work no play makes Ben a nerd boy haha...

Lime rhyme for shove love

2011-07-27T01:17:00.005+08:00

It's been a while I've been searching for gold,

Bold in this cold wonder what should I hold,

Listen well for what I was foretold,

Contemplate all before you get old.

I have been missing by your side,

Not knowing what I should abide,

Forgive me for all my dynamite,

It's my suicide from kryptonite.

I have learned to live half alive,

Striving, fighting just to survive,

Collapsed, tell me how you revive,

Wonder where your energy arrive.

My Nuisance Valentine

2011-02-12T23:59:00.006+08:00

There are few questions that I need to know,

How you could ever hurt me so,

I need to know on what I have done wrong,

How long it has been going on,

Did I never paid enough attention?

Did I never give enough affection?

Did I never treat you right?

Did I always start the fight?

Not just your answers will keep me sane,

I promise you that I will never be the same,

I scour to find peace of mind that was once I owned,

I wish the clock reverse and bring back what once was mine,

To heal what has been hurt, to change the fates designed,

To save what has been lost, bring back what once was mine,

Is this a natural feeling or is it just me bleeding,

You are so beautiful inside and indeed so loving.

Evolution of University Life

2010-03-09T04:31:00.002+08:00

It's now been a while ever since my 1st year in University started and now proceeding to the 2nd year. Many things that were taught and I've learnt too, other than education learning, I've also learnt social life a lot different from before. Things which I've learnt the most besides studying is a precious mystical gift in the world that a person can have is friendship. Hmm, in a sudden this friendship topic pop out of my brain cell...

Let's see for the moment what i can recall back... Friends I have in my country are different to compare them with the friends which i am having now... Back in my country, friends are more national boundaries and limited to some certain country barriers too but here in University, friends are widely international from some places which i barely can imagine to be friends with. Different cultures shows a different way of living a life but some show me how they appreciate life which i don't really do most of the times, not to be boastful but what can I say more if what people thinks that comes in mind on their first impression of my country. I got to know few new personalities of life and been going through many things which I myself can barely imagine of the effects that I've done. Frankly speaking will be, I've beginning to realize what a jerk i am getting into other people's business thinking that I can be an angel salvation and not knowing what a monster I've created out of a decent normal typical human being or is it just their own personality that started to reflect and evolving towards their own future.

A question that I need to know, where can I find such a friend that will be able to understand all the issues and having all the solutions that I need them the most. Maybe such friend does exist or they just haven't show up in my life. Sometimes comes to think back time, I am such a person but why am I still living to some split personality of not letting people to know what type of friend I am ?? I still could not figure that out not until few weeks ago... I do not have to let the world know who I was and what I've did (sounds really big against the world) it is how I will manage my present life and plan my future life will be just good enough for me now. My fear will be the history will haunt me in such a way that it is a weapon that is against my will.

Few people do read my blogs and some people commented them personally. I just feel relief when I post them here somehow I feel like hitting a target to let it know how deeply hurt I am but not for publishing my private life which may contradict with my statement earlier... I am tired of being neutral and being acting as one, being myself is more unreasonable but being who I want to be might work for sure. Basically, I've no idea why in a sudden I made this post at this moment at this time... I was thinking of putting off the heat but wonder where is the fire (a best metaphor to describe my moment now)

Happy 26th Independence Day

2010-02-23T04:00:00.004+08:00

Brunei Darussalam... Happy 26th Independence Day to all Bruneians where ever you are... I am proud to be a Bruneian as we live in peace and you all could not agree more right hehe... Well, i will only make this short as you can visit this website www.nationalday.org.bn for more information

The Other Day

2010-02-20T20:20:00.001+08:00

I thought I was on my way to a perfect life but unfortunately there are some obstacles that I need to face. Just like when I’m driving on the high-way then suddenly I’ve got to stop because of the red light. Well, let’s make it this way; The Day Went It Seems So Bright Can’t Even Last Till Noon… My question is, will it shine back later in the afternoon ??

It’s been a while that I’ve left my blog because that was those days when it shines bright. I’m not sure later in the afternoon, what will it be, sunny ?? rainy ?? or windy ??

I’ve met new people and become friends with them too, I won’t say that I’m lucky or vice-versa but, I’ll say that they are lucky if they can be with me haha… Why I say that ?? This is why, you love me and I love you too but, if you hate me, then I won’t say I hate you or I love you (",) I’ll just flow like the river but you keep on trying to burn on me. That’s totally impossible right ??

There are these bunches of people whom I know from my former school which nobody likes them. Trust me, nobody do except their selves and their own wierd friends. It is because they talk behind their friends to me and their friends do the same thing. I thought I may be the person they like and trust so what else did I do, just go with the flow and be the best person they ever know… I kind of like it, really, because I thought I know everything even the tiny bits. Hmm, what I never knew was that, they even talk behind me to other people and make me look really bad !! Why was I so stupid at that moment, why can’t I just think straight. Maybe the ego of me blooms or maybe…I don’t know what to say… I mean, if I knew they talk about their friends behind to me then why can’t I think for a second whether they do the same thing behind me to their friends…

There were times when I make decisions, just like a popular kid in school hehe… there were also when I’ve got things under control haha, that was totally cool of me =p So when I thought I can trust them then that is the time when I share some secrets on how to make a perfect muffins hahaha… Nah just kidding… To describe my glory in school is so much but to describe what I’ve strife is double the glory but opposite ways. Let’s make it short now, imagine your standing straight on top and then suddenly you are shot but you don’t feel anything at first not till the bullet turns into worms and destroys your body. That was the time I fall on the ground but only on my knees. I stand up straight and look at myself because I was lucky that the bullet pass through me. I do feel the pain people and it really hurts, it is better that way then it turns into worms in my body.

Now I’m leaving you to your own life, back to where you belong. I’m going further but I will remember the scar from the bullet because the scar won’t fade away… Unless I do some plastic-surgery haha… I’m trying to cheer up but I’m not sure if it is working or not. Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice, don’t even try to think about it haha…

Was I that fool ?? Nah… I will be better though because that was the story of me about ‘THE OTHER DAY’ I think the weather is shinning bright now and I have a plane to catch too… Bye you all !! Till my next blog hehe…

Ramadhan 1430 Hijrah

2009-08-22T02:46:00.006+08:00

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak tahun 1430 Hijrah bersamaan 2009 Masehi

Found this video from YT while browsing for islamic cool tracks, never heard of this but once i heard it, it caught my attention of loving it... Plus i post it here due to it's been a while I've not blog =D

Micronet International College Graduation 2009 - Studio Photo

2009-04-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu

2009-02-17T19:47:00.004+08:00

This inconvenient sad news was received via SMS from Alek a friend of mine who inform all of us the lost of our friend. I've been posting about his news on my blog on Thursday, 25 September 2008 and an updated on the Tuesday, 14 October 2008. This will be the final post regarding Mulah Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu.

Mohd Helmi; been a very good friend of mine since we've met on a small soccer team few years back. He used to be our goal-keeper and been guarding well too (indeed, better than myself). Ever since I've started working, we seldom chill but just hang-out here and there along with Abu another friend of ours. He was the first person among my friends in the village to know about updated news of myself for instance buying a new laptop, new games on my consoles and many more. Never once he offend anyone but been a good friend the truth indeed.

I miss his jokes, his ideas, his social talk, his true friendship and most importantly I miss him for being my friend.

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu.

Ford Focus 2.0L Sport Hatchback (5Drs) - Petrol

2009-02-10T21:48:00.007+08:00

posting this on behalf of my friend =D

Ford Focus 2.0L Sport Hatchback (5Drs) - Petrol

Transmission Semi-Auto

Diamond White Colour

Original Focus accessories included

16" Alloy 5 Spokes

Accident Free

Well maintained at Premier Motor Sdn Bhd

35,000+ Milleage

1st Owner

Still under warranty

Just Continue bank $389.00 per month x 5.4 Years. Bank HSBC

Sambung saja bank $389.00 sebulan x 5.4 Tahun. Bank HSBC

Change ownership and renew license plate are a MUST. Interested buyer can contact 8118386 for more details.

Tukar nama dan penukaran nombor kenderaan adalah d mestikan. Sesiapa yang berminat boleh lah menguhubungi 8118386

Banjir - Flood

2009-01-29T09:32:00.009+08:00

Today is the 2nd time for January 2009 that I cannot go to work due to the flood which happened drastically. 1st was last week and 2nd is today. Some pictures which I was able to shoot today (didnt went out to the water fear of snakes, liches etc... just stand where I can see my legs clearly)

Image below taken behind my house from my room

Before getting my foot wet, manage to capture this image

The whole road was fully filled with muddy cold water flood (from my right)

(from my left)

A 4 weeler tried to go through the flood (no comment on this)

I zoomed my camera to this man, look at the water level from the image below

My neighbour also tooked the chance to shoot the disaster

Classic !! Wonder if the owner was aware.

Bosses

2009-01-19T19:24:00.004+08:00

_{FYI: Received from my colleague and I manage to stick this COOL message on}

_{my wall !! Haha... No Fear to my bosses as I will be quitting soon, indeed !!}

Old Car & New Car

2009-01-13T18:35:00.011+08:00

Napa nah kereta ku ?? Hehe... Overhaul sehari ato d Lmbk... Well, it was in the evening while driving with my sister and maid in the car. Skalinya kan, bunyi mcm kotak minuman kena junak tapi basar or like a piece of cloth you tear into two. Tkajut pulg mula2, then ku taruskan jua... It was dark masa kn masuk junction (tmpt Berakas Power Station yg menuju Jalan Badil ahh) While we were on Jalan Badil kan, ada bau rubber burn dah. So ku turunkn tabuk semua and jalan plahan ja smpai2 k rumah my cuzen ngam2 dapan rumahnya tarus mati engine *panic* (ari g ujan p mbarai2 ja lah) kuar tah ku ne sma my maid nyurung kn parking then my sis dlm kereta kira mulas2 stering ahh... So pas tuu masuk ku ddlm rumah my cuzen n panggil my dad Esuk paginya, tepun penunda keta insurance hehe n masuk woksop... So while nungu2 smpi baik den my prnts bali kn keta baru *smile* eseh... keta lama rusak keta bru bali haha... ramai org ckp2 anak manja bnr tapi bukan kali ahh sal andang jua durg plan kn bali p bukan kerana kereta ku rosak yo, ato teruk bnr desire demand ku haha...

My new car nanti will be like the picture attach sini =D it's Kia Sorento pulg hehe... Kereta ku yg baru ane (adeh, kereta ku ehh, jgn inda galat haha) will be out by this week *hyper to the max* pa nya org, 'Bau Cina' ?? Gong Xi Fat Chai kn nda g lama LOL... [i consider this as New Year present... haha, labih2]

Selamat Tahun Baru 1430 Hijrah

2008-12-30T23:55:00.005+08:00

Saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Tahun Baru 1430 Hijrah to all Muslims (mudah2an inda terlambat kn greet biskita yang membace hehe)

* Purposely didn't upload any pictures for general reason.

Merry Christmas 2008

2008-12-25T14:08:00.012+08:00

Wishing all the my friends and colleagues (non-muslim who celebrates Xmas) a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. May this holiday season brings you happiness with your loved ones =D

PlayStation Home Open Beta Launches Today !!

2008-12-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

Guess what you gamers out there !! Check out the PS Home today and you'll be surprise, more info check this link !! (Posting redudant is a waste when you will be reading the same info)

Hari Raya Aidladha

2008-12-10T00:54:00.005+08:00

It's more than a month now and I've been busy with my life sorting my application to Uni in KL and busy with my job in BSP (expose secret ku haha)... Well, di kesempatan ane, I would like to wish "Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha / Haji" to all Muslims. Takbir raya 3 hari so I guess masih inda terlambat lah kan post ane hehe...

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Hatta Bin Haji Minor Absah

2008-10-27T20:26:00.011+08:00

Shocking news on one of my colleague who happens to be one of my Learning Adviser (LA) in my department. He passed-away on Saturday... I received an SMS from one of my colleague half-hour to mid-night. Surprised and shocked, i stop eating in my friends house in Serasa Beach.

Mohd Hatta ; at first when i was been introduce to him, i taught he was some Japanese man cause the name Hatta sounds like one. He was one of the best LA i've ever encounter and the most supporting ever. Never once he make a fool of me and blame mistakes but indeed his advise and words of wisdom were always there.

The news and picture of late Mohd Hatta are posted by my colleague Masyani (AKA) Dexxy.

Al-Fatihah to Mohd Hatta bin Haji Minor Absah.

Hair Cut

2008-10-19T23:29:00.005+08:00

I've just got my hair-cut about 21 days ago (before the Raya commence). Then yesterday, on Saturday afternoon I went to the Mall and decide to have a hair-cut again hehe... Nothing much to say but here goes my short-hair...

Why did I cut my hair was because I'm flying off soon and in order to look like a 'good-boi' i've gotta chop my long-hair off and btw, I'm not sure whether i look good with long-hair tho. For the moment, i'll keep it short and smart (will try)...

Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu (version 2)

2008-10-14T20:23:00.004+08:00

To readers of my blog, I've posted about my friend Helmi (aka) Boii on last month post. Some may recall and some may not. This is the latest update that I've got since last week.

He was been discharged 2 days before the Hari Raya commence (2nd October, 2008). I text him on an invitation to my 'open-house' which was held on the 4th October, 2008. He did not reply stating his attendance or absence, I assume he might be able to make it along with his family / friends. Just few days after that, I was curious on his health so I text him informing with a reason that I wanted to come over and visit him since it is still Hari Raya (up till 1 month). He reply my text and inform me that he was been warded back to the hospital. I was shock of what he told me that he went for a surgical. He didn't text much but stating his status that he was admitted and he is not available at home. I dare not inquiry more via SMS but rather pay a visit soon.

[since I've not yet visit him, due to work loads in the office and barely could reach home by early evening so I probably should stop till here for now version 2, will update more on version 3 and i hope it can be a good news]

Accident during dawn

2008-10-10T00:27:00.008+08:00

This happens to me few days when the Hari Raya was going to commence (2008). It was early morning (dawn before the sun rise), my family and I were planing to go to Lawas to visit our Grandma's cemetery and some of my dad's late relatives too. On a flat highway where the visibility was quite dark and dim street lights, I step on my pedal to accelerate about 130 km/h (if I was not mistaken). In a sudden, a 'thing' about 5 meters from my front right went in front of me *bloops* it sounded. I could not break on the spot or else my car along with my family will be in serious trouble. After it hit the 'thing' I have a look on my rear and side mirrors and could barely see anything.

[skipping to points]

Have a look at what happen below, I've tooked this picture as I arrived in Temburong. People on the road were looking and staring at my car with the 'What the heck happen ??' face on them haha...

My fog light was hanging and I cut and pull it off but the other side stays. I was trying to browse for something as evidence that I've hit the 'thing' on the road. Not even a single proof I can find but it wreck my fiber glass from my front grill as per below image...

Then, after I've fix everything that's a week after the incident, my car looks good as new as per image below... Super bright platinum white hehe... And ohh btw, this image below was taken last night after I went Raya with my friends...

And now you all know that I am driving a Japanese car too =D By the image, you all know the type, model and colour but not the plate license hehe...

Back online

2008-10-09T19:43:00.002+08:00

.........................[connecting to server 1691].........................

.........[connection to server is back online].........

*phew* what a relief !! It's been like 2 weeks (or more) now that I've not been going online and especially updating my blog here... I've got internet connection problem here at home in my room hehe =D The main problem is that, my landline in my room is not working and I've got to connect my splitter along with my modem and router in my parents room... !!

Cemana ku kan online main PS3 ne, mun wifi lmbt kali ahh biasa pakai LAN... Hmm... Ne downloading movies pun batah !! Ehh, it is now still Raya hehe, lupa lah... Well, I've done update ne sikit (pa jua ane haha) I will update about my trip to Sarawak, Boii's condition and my Raya Festival so far hehe... I'm departing home too (this will be mention soon)... Mbah kan beraya dulu peramba ne sama kawan2 *eseh*... Later you all !!

Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu

2008-09-25T00:33:00.006+08:00

To Readers, kindly help me to pray for a friend of mine 'Mohd Helmi bin Haji Sabtu' AKA Boii.

He is now warded in the RIPAS Hospital after going an operation about 2 weeks ago. He got a tumor on-top of his spinal-cord where the back-bone is located that was affecting his nerves veins . Boii is now suffering to get well soon. Now he is trying to move his legs / toes and I'm praying that his blood will flow normally to his legs so he can walk back as usual and play soccer like before. Since Hari Raya Aidilfitri is coming-up and Lailatul Qadar is around, all I'm asking is to help him by praying for him to get well soon. I thank to you all in advance for doing a great deed, may Allah repay the goodness in you, Amin.

Hari Raya Songs

2008-09-19T01:57:00.004+08:00

Dear Readers,

I have just uploaded my some of my favourite Hari Raya Aidilfitri songs on the side bar. You can enjoy listening to the songs whilst reading my blog.

P.S.: Semangat raya kali ahh hehe...

-BeN-

September 11

2008-09-11T19:16:00.006+08:00

NY back few years ago... If you still remember the tragic which strike the World Trade Center ?? Well, that doesn't have anything to do with this post of mine hehe... I just thought of the date today and flash my memory back.

Today masuk yg ke 10 hari puasa in Brunei Darussalam for this year 2008. Got 20 more days in counting for the HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, yip yip horray !!

Check list;

Cara Melayu [check, nunggu ngambil ja g d kadai]
Kasut [inda payah, pasal kasut taun lapas ada 3 & 1 inda bpakai]
Sinjang d kadai [TBA, msh pikir2 kn bali atau inda, kira kan matching wah...]
Porsche Design Shades [ooooh, gonna get 1 soon, indeed]
Jam tangan EA [eseh, mcm banar saja kan mbali]
Kereta BMW [tunggu tah ne mun ada rezeki]

Ato semua kwn2 adalah check list peramba toh... Actually kan, mcm tinggal satu barang wah... Apa nah ?? Sapa dpt teka apa yg tinggal ??

SONGKOK

Haha... Buelh cya lupa ku ku kn simpan dlm check list hehe... For me lah ahh, inda bsongkok tym beraya ne (f makai cara melayu) inda complete rasanya... Pa guna hari raya mun adat kan d modern kan haha, apakan... Krg ia jua nya nda ku bsongkok tuu haha... Liat lah cemana dulu f ku mengusut tym raya nda lah kai p f mcm OK sja mood ku nda ngusut2 kpanasan o pa2 yg dpt menyebabkn inda makai den tinggal tia dlm keta tuu hehe...

Ramadhan

2008-08-29T19:57:00.006+08:00

Today, 29th of August and in the Muslim calender it is my birthday (again) hehe... 28 Syaaban is the date when I was born in the Muslim Calendar. My colleagues and I went for lunch today as because this is the last lunch for us before the upcoming Ramadhan coming very soon (",)/`

Every year I always wish for a better Ramadhan and a better Syawal hehe, I guess that is the spirit of the special month... "Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan Yang Bakal Menjelang dan Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa".

EA Shades

2008-08-23T20:56:00.000+08:00

In the afternoon, I went shopping with my parents and I was hunting for some hot dying shades. Went from downtown to uptown and way back *phew*. As time was getting to eve, I got stuck with the Emporio Armani Shades... Damn !! It was so cool that look hot on me LOL... Well, I don't have a picture of it with me neither I can browse it on the internet. Why I did not buy the EA Shades now is because, I don't even know why...

I also like two of them namely Oakley and Porsche Design. I can only get the chance to put it on my face but it is just too hot where it acline from my targetted budget hehe... Although I really love Hugo Boss but I could not find the perfect match with me today.

My search for the shades ends by 21:00 hrs back home on Saturday night where I am now typing and posting =D I will continue my hunt again soon before the upcoming HARI RAYA this OCTOBER !!

PSP-3000

2008-08-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

PSP-3000 shipping worldwide in October !!

If it's that cool feature is better than current PSP-2000 then I assume it is worth waiting for... well, perhaps grab one will be much of an experience hands-on practice hehe... Browse the internet for more information =D

20th August 2008

2008-08-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

It is now or never decision for me to make... Well, today is my 1st year anniversary of working with The Company along with EJ. Congrates to EJ of getting a better contract than mine hehe, totally unexpected and surprising after a year we've been through together.

Fair or unfair, the power is out of reach for both of us but no matter what we are still friends and will always be friends. I do understand that our line managers have different point of view individually but yet we stand strong to strife towards a better future.

It was a year ago and I still remember it clearly... I was late for the first day of work haha, rushing through the winds while speeding my 4x4 wheeler on the roads. Went to the HQ and was so glad to see a stranger, young man indeed. I expected the unexpected from The Room. Thought he was my colleague and was so happy to get a new friend in my workplace but eventually after signing contracts, waiting in queues, taking Smart Cards ID's along with a photo-shot we were assign on different NIA Buildings and Departments.

Today we have make our decisions clearly by signing to The Paper. Another year for me and double for you. I am always worry for my friends boat and I don't know where my river will flow mine.

twenty - fifth

2008-06-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

Arigatogozaimasu (nda g ada bsalam ne, jadi Jepun dah haha) to all my friends and colleagues yang telah menjayakan (mcm rancangan TV saja hehe) surprise birthday party for me yang buat me, myself and aku speechless and malu kali ku haha... Manakan, di canteen office lagi adoi2... Everything was very well plan by them (EO jua bnr) tapi yang hairannya aku inda perasan langsung ane wah hehe...

I was suppose to upload this image and post this on / during my birthday on June the 10th but tlalai saja iatah inda ada masa kan edit2 post ane... Via dis I would like to thanks all of you but I know not much know about my existing blog but at least my friends who read this knows that my colleagues do remmember my birthday and they do care... Eseh apakan, emosi pulg aku ane skadar birthday haha... Tapi thanks jua to my family, cuzens, friends yg msg2, bagi testi2 d tmpt lain, greetings via radio ada lagi org East sanggup bgun subuh2 haha n ohh yeah my peeps yg d KL, Spore, Aussie, Indon, Borneo jua d ucapakn ribuan bnyk2 skali THANK YOU !! Wadoh2, mcm sambutan basar2an pulg haha...

Ok, aku ane jgn inda saja kan update blog ku ane sal ramai dah org tagur ku why ku nda update2 post baru... Classic wah jwpn ku, "Busy with my career" Well, banar kali ahh hehe... Ok2, bcoz + malas jua wah kn post2 sal kmu (sapa2 yg pernah tagur n terbaca n membaca ane nda jua bagi2 comment hehe...) baca2 saja n nda jua mau buat blog den nda g ada comment tuu (kmu nda dpt bagi comment sal kmu nda blog lah tuu, settings ku wah tuu sini ahh hehehe...) Mbah, ne ja lu ayt, krg pnjng2 boring kmu... (nda idea g wah hehe...)

-: Double Trouble :-

2008-02-25T01:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, ane ceta ku yg paling ku nda suka lah. Kira segmen stress ku lah hehe... It all starts 2 weeks ago, my colleague ane cuti......... Tym nya ada kaja, nda ku tau pa kajanya yg bz brabiz ane wah smpai mun kn cari ia pun punya pyh... Well, i understand pulg wat he do p sometimes i duno y he is stress komplain2 tia arah kmi sorang2...

Early morning on Monday: I was working trying to complete my work and replying emails then alum g panas wah kerusi ku ahh kena radio tia ku kena suruh k sana lah, sini lah... Mcm2 karenah org yg ada ne wah, manja2 wah sorang2... Dah ku abis ahh, ada

tia org tua ane, ia ane mun kn bhajat manis wah mulutnya (jgn saja makan dpuji), ku andang paham dah ia ane... Sometimes or should i say, most of the time ia ane 'tray two face' hahaha... =p kira talam dua muka wah... Dpuji2nya ne yg nda2 rah ku ahh, well aku ane bukan pulg apa gnya i know if jenis org muji ane wah... Puji2 berisi tau ku dah, puji2 ikhlas buleh lah hehehe... Cya, ia suruh aku clearkn PC wah yg bhabuk2 ane k tmpt lain. Sruhnya ku masukkan k dlm store apa ne dulu then kuar tia supervisor ku... Dis bitch

i really hate brabiz yo !! Shes a deep slutty bitch wah. D suruhnya ku angkay PC2 ato n panyap bisai2 k atas extension meja ku kaja ahh, ato ia... !! Nda baie dmana tah lagi toh... Yg hairannya ku ato nda mlwn wah, sal mula2 ku pikir kaja kwn ku yg ku ganti ane iatah ku pun nda jua sure so ku buat tah saja...

Tuesday story: Then ane second day lah ku ganti kwn ku, mcm2 ne complain sal PC IT apa... Ada yg ok p i tink kn semua kali sal yg nda ok ato ingat2 ku mcm nda jua hehehe... Alum ku start kaja kali ahh, buleh ?? Ane, kn tgh hari bru ku start kali ne sal apa nda ku ingat g coz its 2 weeks ago wah... Ingat2 ku kaja ku bnyk lum siap lah then supervisor ku g toh bagi email n copy semua yg ia mengarahkan ku mealih PC2 atas meja ku asap... Antah ko !! Sendiri ko mbuat, mcm tah ku ada msa free kan raise order, ckp pun nda kn tau... Raise ane lah p salah yo... LOL...

Hari Wednesday: Ane tah yg hari ku malu ne yo, tym ane ku always hope that kaja kwn ku ane nda teruk wah n kaja ku kira buleh ku siapkan lah... Bru ku masuk office then ada this post-it note stating yg im been order to move some PC bla... bla.

.. bla.. Tarus tah ku bjln k office org yg nyuruh ku ane, ku g nda pernah buat order2 ane, sal kaja ku lain n kaja kwn ku yg ku ganti ane g lain, so ku tepun tah org yg berkenaan minta tolong... Baik jua ada org mau advise ku cna2... Skali ku liat email ku, adoi2... Baik pulg ku kaja jadi central email saja nah hahaha... Cya tym tgh hari ahh, ku ato mcm2 wah email ku yg urgent cukup dgn ada g or mau capat2 mcm2 dlm email, smpai nda ku tkabir wah kaja2 ku ahh... I cant believe tym ane ku ternangish wah =( Nda smana2... Adoi2, ato ia tarus ku k jmbn laju2 hahaha, shyt !! I tink too much in my brain tym ane + panic kaja nda siap + server down sialan jua toh...

Thursday creeps: The more i tink bout my work, the more stre

ss and sakit pala ku mikir2 kn sal kelmarin ahh... Rasa ku kn minta cuti wah, bnr tah p ku gurantee jua nda dpt sal aku ganti org then aku tah g minta cuti, haha... nda cali toh boi... hehe... !! Kira andang ku target dah ne kaja ku nda tkabir g tapi baik jua lah sikit hehe sal at least ku minta tolong rah org lain. Yg ku hairan durg ne pikir ku ane ok2 saja kali wah or maybe... (well thinking negative tah ne haha)... Hairan ku jua masih, bagas2 kelmarin ada org2 offer help wah hehe =D

Then it's Friday: Ane tym ane ku nda mcm prasan something fishy bout kwn2 ku dgn ku kaja lah... Yg ku prasan and trasa that, they only need me

when they are in need of me and when they are glad, im out of their name list. Adoi2, is it just my feelings or is it im stress or is it apa ahh ?? Iatah tym kn lunch, ku ane malas kn bwa kwn2 ku p dah ku pikir2kn, mcm jahat jua aku ato mun sampai ati hahaha... Mau inda mau, dgn hati yg tpaksa ku bawa saja tia durg ane... Iatah ku prasan starting ari ane yg mun tym kaja, pyh2 ku kn minta tolong p mun tym kn lunch adoi2, rajin wah sorang2 btanya aku haha... Was i a fool ?? Shame on me !!

Weekends: Got nothing much to say coz i got no mood and not much leisure tym to spend too... Ntah, maybe tlampau labih kaja ato ngaleh tia jua aku ato... I did text my frens p its been a while ku nda text2 durg and lama jua ku nda chill2 ane ntah

durg pikir ku apa kah, nda tau lah hehe... I juz havent knoe how to divide my tym yet even tho kaja kn 6 bulan dah... I only liat DVD dumah, o9 chat2, surf2 apa2 sja yg siuk2 haha... Yo, jgn pikir2 lain2 ahh hehe...

Back to Monday: Ane g tia baie, pikir kwn ku yg ku ganti ne ok dah... Damam ia n ambil MC haha, chibai kian !! Well, maybe i can understand org balik2 blyr lah kirakan tapi dude, im not stupid lah !! Cya tym blyar, langsung nda ia tepun2 aku

tnya2 kabar kah apa n cna kaja... Dude, aku mengganti ko kali ahh, at least tnya2 lah cna kaja ku apa ane mcm nda bdosa n nda butang pa2 wah... Though decision for me ptg ahh, bnyk kaja2 ku kira angan2 kn mbuat ptg ne p g tia teruk suk kami ada roadshow n bnyk PC kn ku pindah, usai, check... Gaji ku ane nda jua basar bnr, p kaja org ku ganti ane 3 kali ganda dari aku !! Shyt2 !!

Choosing Tuesday: Early morning dah ne kmi tpaksa k HQ wah... Ujan g pagi, apa nda sajuk badan hehe... Tym ane kwn ku yg baik lah hehe, cJam ane ia kn jumpa Doctor lah then ku ane planning kn dgni ia p tkut ku krg d HQ kena cari2 ku haha sal ku ganti kwn ku MC ahh... Then i ask cJam ane bwa keta ku kira antar and ambil aku la

h, ia ane g takut2 kn bwa keta org... Pham pulg ku gnya desperate tym call for desperate measures sometimes hehehe... So tym2 tgh hari kmi ada FOC refreshments, lunch and snacks wah, ku lagaw tia suruh cJam dtg... Then jump to ptg, ku tpaksa k HQ sal my colleague yg ada dHQ ane nda mau nolong2 liat2kn PC2 ahh... Baie sialan jua toh, cuba tah paham2 sikit kn aku ane, dah tah ku ganti2 org minggu lapas then tmbah tah lagi 2 hari !! Fuck you all man hahaha... Tunggu ku ada power abis kmu haha, angan2... :-p

Wicked Wednesday: Ane yg ku hairan kwn ku yg

ku ganti ato, pagi2 marung... Dude, mun kan marung2 ato jgn tah kaja, nda masa ku kn mliat mua org karas2 yo... Bynk g mua org dBndr lagi karas2 hahaha... Ane kmi k KB Town, ia minta dgni jua buat kajanya... ane ku cuba pahami lah sal ia lama cuti then tambah g MC 2 hari so ku undstnd emailnya btimbun lah... Ku nda kacau2 lah p ku cuba2 jua tolong2 p ku bagi2 supaya ia paham krg kaja ku nda tkabir lagi... Mana jua org lain kan paham ne, aku jua kena marah nda paidah2... Awu mun ku dah nda tahan g nahan rasa marah ku, abis meja tampik dua, eseh... kira juat dah toh haha...

Thursday: Str8 to the point that i feel safe workin

g in the morning p tym ptg, adoi2, mcm biasa lah, got to buat kaja kwn ku sal ia d KB alasanya simple, ia malas balik k Seria Town and ia minta tolong ku uruskan... Haha... sanag boi ko ckp, mun ku nda uruskan kira aku jua krg slah toh... I cant do much at this point sal ku nda tpikir pnjang wah, kaja timbun2 kali ahh... Malas tah ku kan buat pa2 p tolong2 ja...

Freaky Friday: Nda semana2 ku kn smbyg wah (dah susah baru ka ingat) adoi2... Ane kira ku kira energetic lah sikit sal mun kena bwa nyaya apa ku jwb balik dah hehe, sal kira ok lah ku dah ne... P msh jua kwn ku ane abil ksempatan nya... Nda ku mau krg baginya ku kaja yg sikit p process pnjng... Apa kah pikirnya aku ane... Im sure next week ku kn sindir ko ne, nda ku duli haha... buwoh, bnyk hajat ku kn jahat2 ne ahh... hmmm

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Weekends: Brunei 24th National Day !! Nda ku tau kn ceta pa sini sal nda ku jalan2 bnyk n nda ku kn inagaw2 apa2... I feel so damn exhasuted saja coz it was a hell of a 2 weeks !! Bru tah ku pernah rasa nyaman brabis tido ku kn sehari nda ku bnyk bgarak ahh... Mana g ku damam sehari hehe iatah mbuat ku lamah nda tdaya kan bnyk kaja. It's my receovery time hehe...

Well peeps, those were the horrible not to details fact about my two weeks in work-place. Tell u what, dont work with respect to non-repecters, work with attitude to bull-shitters hahaha !! Sorry guys, too much of crab words ?? Probably my blood is boiling at some unknown microwavable point hehe...

You'll never know when you found a true friend not until the value is lost !! True friends will do anything with you for you, where true colours will reveal not by coincidence but by choice.

MB063 =D

2008-02-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

It's 4am and I'm still wide awake argghhh, mcm nda kn kaja wah ku esuk rasanya hahaha... I've been surfing all night long and been trying to discover something out of many things that my new laptop can do hehehe... Ndangnya, laptop baru ne mesti di liat2 jua hehehe... It's about 2 weeks old now since i have it =D P jgn jua, im a new-user then masa mula2 blur brabiz hahaha... Nda pernah makai Mac OS then tarus2 makai, rajin kali ahh mbaca manualnya haha...Baik jua cJam (Jam bangga lah ko ne ahh ku smpan nama mu lol) nolong ku untuk mgetahui lebih lanjut dan cepat esehwah hehehe... N now, ku bangga lah sikit2 at least ku tdpt jua hehe + makai mcm pro (haha... pro tia krg) !!

Macam nda jua paidah2 ku mblog ahh hahaha, kira before ku mandi subuh ne kn kaja baik tah bkunyanyang sikit2 hehe sal ku jrg active sini ahh n ku tau jua nda jua org kn mbaca sini ne haha... Jadi tah asal ada tmpt ku mbual2 hahaha...

Deliberate ??

2008-01-13T14:41:00.000+08:00

I dream of things which are impossible for people to think. Well, what kind of things ?? Hmm... things like how you know about other people's mind, in fact like a mind reader. Not saying that I'm a freak or got super powers or something but it's the fact... Sometimes, it pops in my brain cell for information like the person's password beside me. Trust me, you don't want to get close to me for this reason cause I might be reading your dirty secrets which I wouldn't want to know too... Damn !! Why can't I read the other person's answers sitting around me ?? Maybe it was just my luck to know his or her password last time ?? Hmm... This has been haunting my life, ooooo (spooky sounds with the wind whirls) hehe... Okay, honestly I did got my friends password just by sitting next to them and suddenly *pops* it's kind of obscure for me to guess but I assume it was right. Oh why not give a try to asked them (rolling drum - hey I do need some effects here hehe, sorry people let's continue again - rolling drum) after I told them, it turns out I was right, yehaa !! Strike one !! Hehe... despite of my happiness it turns out they got shock; blur. I was happy to assume but they were contemplating. Why ?? Well, I guess it's when you know a security code for a nuclear bomb, don't you think people will be afraid of you to know their pin numbers or any of your dark secrets ??

Okay, here is another one. How would you feel or how would you respond when a person, enters your dream showing what they want you to understand ?? In the dream, your sitting beside them, while they are in pain and trying to tell you something, a message maybe... Then when you woke up, you don't feel right and you try to figure it out. You hope it is just a silly dream then it turns out whoever is in your dreams are dying... Not an easy one !! I myself, don't even like to think about it but maybe it was something that I don't want to understand or except. Few days later, you received a bad news saying that person is no longer here or else where. Your mind recalls the dream, so how would you feel and how would you respond then ?? Well, ask me this and I’m going to say, I should have pray for them and asked for forgiveness.

Hmm... the point of the two paragraph is that, this is not an ubiquitous 'thing', some people think I deliberately know it from others by force but hey, if others don't even know it, how do you think I get it ?? Well, the 'thing' does comes in handy sometimes hehe but I'm not sure where is it now ?? I used to have dreams to discover some information but it does not appear in my dreams now a days, wonder why... Perhaps it WAS my luck or maybe it IS my luck, yet...not known. To survive or to be perish ?? That's the question I've been asking myself... It's been a year now that I'm having a simple or should I say 'normal' life. It's great and I enjoy it too especially with my friends and family. There are some strangers turn to be my friend then left as my guess. (Well, I won't describe it as my enemy because I think it's a little harsh hehe...) Oh please, you'll make my day (",) You are afraid of the 'thing' I'm having then you turn your back on me. Left me in the deep water but again my question is, to survive or to be perish ?? Before that, I'll deliberately eliminate the grift within me and strife accross the ocean in the deep water.

I'll always remember the guardian angel who appears in my nightmare and saved me. Love and peace to you all my friends... Choose your true friends by heart not by hard !!

Mcm membual wah aku ne, eh bukan lagi mcm... ia udah ne hahaha... Ku ne kuat mbual nya kwn2 ku yg telah merapati aku dan yg ku rapati hehehe... Ckp pun nda menantu kdg2 p ada kalanya ku serious hantap yo !! P jrg lah, kdg2 ja, mun org kasar ckp then, padas jua ku membalas toh =p huhu... Ato ja bualan peramba masa ane... Bubye...

The New Begining

2008-01-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hola Everybody !! This is my first post and I doubt my confidence to post stuffs which maybe crap haha...

Behold myself as a person who likes to surf the world via internet and chat via IM's. Thinking of the global-warming sometimes, wierd huh ?? Wow, I type down useless information which some of you peeps might find irrelevant haha...

Hey EJ, guess what ?? I just created a blog hahaha... Yeah blog man !! Thanks to my colleague, ejam AKA EJ who has convince me so far =p but it's on my own desire too man !! No wories hehe... Little info on EJ --> A guy whom I meet on the 1st day of my job and on his 1st day too. Good brother, talkative, friendly, laugh loud, strong imagination all this is when we know him after a while... Sorry dude, got to describe something bout you, at least hehehe...

Ok ok, let's get serious with this... I don't usually use to this type of things of where elaborating my particulars meticularly hehe, but hey, why not give a shot ??

I graduated from a private college (MIC) last 2006 and started my career in one of the leading company in the world last 2007. Why I type down it's leading is because it is... hehe, it's Shell tho =D Started making new friends with some strangers and getting unwanted attention is not new things for me in life.

Come to think of my life, I would desire to start a family soon but unfortunately I am own by no one. Come to desire to love, my demand of life practiculary stops me from going on. Why ?? When ?? Who ?? Those are the three common W's that are been asked from my friends and family.

Life is full of colours I might say. Isn't it ?? Family are my aura and friends are my colours. It reflects every point to the edge on how things are run in our routine.

For my first blog, I assume it is best for me to stop now because I have not yet much to type. Till the next time, we shall meet again hehe...

-BeN-